I’m in my father’s basement, in is workroom.\u00a0I haven’t even told him anything about my latest life ventures, including leaving work, I guess.<\/p>\n
I’m stuttering to talk to him. I have trouble seeing him. \u00a0I collapse into a chair and he helps me sit down in it.<\/p>\n
At some point in this our terse conversation, Dad pins me back against the wall with a cabinet so I am forced to look at him.<\/p>\n
He shines the light directly in my face. He has\u00a0amazing solid brown eyes; it’s\u00a0like the first time I see his eyes;\u00a0I’m excited at how beautiful they are.\u00a0I try to tell him this and he doesn’t hear.<\/p>\n
He interrupts me with curt criticism.<\/p>\n
I confess to quiting work.<\/p>\n
“I haven’t been working for 6 months,” I say, “except for a pity side-project. I\u00a0work in therapy.”<\/p>\n
He criticizes my calling it gossip.<\/p>\n
Did I say gossip? I don’t remember well enough — perhaps I did; “I meant therapy.”<\/p>\n
Maybe he’s going to find a job for me in his office —\u00a0but, I’m not going to accept that.<\/p>\n
He lights candles to increase the intensity of the light until he accidently lights a Chinese firecracker than ignites and burns down to a whistle; the whistle blows loud and steady into my awakening.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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