The most important thing about a loved thing is it is loved
There is something in spontaneous being that defies analysis. That analysis, set apart from spontaneous being, searches for cheating rules when, without rules, being one’s self is not the rule, but simply the way. One sells one’s self short attempting to package one’s self into something that fits when fitting is supposed to be the substance. The broad expanse of the self, the contemporality of the self is that most precious elixir of the self we fain would capture if we could without denying its essence.
So much beautiful wild my little
So startled to see vibrancy: the full tender flesh of the flowers; proud colors present themselves before the overcast sky faithfully to the sun. Fragile, these fall days; about to tumble… the wind wisps about me. I see a tree struck by lightening; a cloven branch clings to the trunk, its leaves at my feet, curling with burning crimson. I gaze up and blink at the tree’s green leaves.
Though it’s getting late in the day, shall I skip over to the lake? My years do not count like those of a child. I go to the lake, overjoyed to see the sun has not set. The sunlight dances completely from one side to the other; the entire breadth is shimmering: the glory of the dancing sunrays on the water. That is what these fall days provide: an extended lifespan and, then, to finally see the naked tree revealed in the light.
I saw a beautiful floating thing rock–leaf–floaty, hovering just beneath the surface of the pond. My heart gazed; my romance always on “It is perhaps a piece of trash; don’t be open.” I gazed sunken rock, gold leaf, floating submerged Then I saw it: a turtle’s head poking out of the water breathing with the whole pond, breathing my breath, so cute and innocent at once my love was explained. One turtle in the whole pond breathing in air for the whole pond, poking its head out to connect the underneath with the forest. Floating in earnest little grace and so picturesque I grabbed and shook my phone. “You are going to miss him. He will go should you take his picture.” I took it. He was not in it, just a pond and woods so picturesque if there would be a little turtle in the middle of it. I gazed and saw the turtle unchanged and as I delighted he ducked his head down; a ring emanated over the pond and a little bloop where his head had been — gone. I looked back at the picture. He was there; his head one little speck. The sublime floating gold unseen hidden by the pond’s reflection of the sky. I talked with some people there; they had seen the turtle, too.
Oh Universe, how am I so lucky to be your lover? When I breathe, I take you in; you take up my exhalations. You decorate your forest of curls with fireflies, don a cap of full moon; in the heavens of your eyes, your soul flashes around me.
The best words hold aloft that glimpse of self shining through, unraveling ensnaring words.
I relished your boyish whimsy: wanting, at one and the same time, to do no evil and to index everything. I snapped at a shrub to give to you, wondering if you would tell me whether it was shrouded in those same leaves of old that crown a good sauce. You guffawed and tutored me to consider man–made products: I would do well to avoid flowers and puppies. I lay in a patch of Quaker Ladies near the water as the Spring gusts garnished me with pollen. I strolled barefoot home in the mud as the rain came. You turned white when I asked the meaning of Stockton Gala Days; you produced the most delicious drops of technicolor: something in the red, green, and blue pixels of your blank screen shinning through the ensnared dew still waiting to connect technology to nature. I longed to turn you around to give you a picture of yourself, but then the moment would have been lost and somehow the algorithms that embed don’t capture it all.
Once upon a time, just blobs of cold. We know better now our modern sensibilities understanding each flake: a little bit of dust through hot and cold from such great heights, a natural growth of crystalline nature unique through its travels often imperfect its simple structure making it glaringly obvious, melting on human contact.