Contraction

One touch turns my clear, cold lake ashimmer,
Triggers my steady stream of smoke
 into a plume of vortexes.
I pull my skirt down;
 still, my ridiculous, silky legs
 form an arrow as bright as a billboard
 advertising that cleft in my soul,
 beating in my stomach.
Your seawater seeps into my clam,
 irritating my muscle, violating my space.
You fucker, sticking a thumb into my polished lens
 that held a million colors:
 a thumbprint rending all my pictures blurry.
My body quakes with chain reaction:
 I will never be whole again.
My life condemned: a vain attempt to protect
 this urchin part of me —
Only for it to continue on into
 as many grains of sand in the sea.