Gutted

Weary wounds
 down the sides of the front of my torso
 raw from my continually
 cutting you out of my lungs:
I had made a bold play of it once;
 now I stare —
 take slow gapes of resignation.
The fishhooks I withdrew —
 cut each one in half with my knife —
 they keep coming;
 there are so many now.
I look up to the sky
 filtered through the surface of the water;
 who knows, maybe, of a sudden:
  Yank.